Ever since I created this space it’s felt like home to me. I’ve always come here to pour my heart out, share the greatest joys of my life, and find comfort and healing during the difficult times. I find that no matter where my journey takes me I always end up here, wanting to share all of the twists and turns with you. I’ve tried to quit you, sometimes I even gave ya the cold shoulder when the going was pretty tough but I come back time and time again because you are special to me. When something big happens in my life I start feeling that pull, that whisper to come back and share it with you. So here I am, showing up and showing you my heart.
Sometimes there are moments in life where you’re standing on the edge of a decision. You’re shaking and unsure, your vision blurs and your palms sweat. You know that there are only two options ahead, back down or take the leap. I don’t know how many times, especially in my businesses, I have been on that cliff. Afraid of rejection or failure or worse. Afraid I am not enough. Afraid. There have been so many times when I have stood on the edge and then talked myself down. So many times I let fear make the decisions in my life. So many times. And that’s all of us right?! Because the unknown is scary and unpredictable and well, unknown.
“The difficult thing is that vulnerability is the first thing I look for in you and the last thing I’m willing to show you. In you, it’s courage and daring. In me, it’s weakness.”
I read this quote the other day and it sort of smacked me in the face like a ton of bricks because isn’t that the truth?! We hold ourselves back from being authentic and vulnerable because we don’t want others to see our weaknesses but the truth is that when we show up, ready to take that big scary leap others don’t see our weaknesses at all! They see that we are committed. They see that we are courageous. They see that we are human. And that sparks connection.
A few months ago I was standing on the edge of another one of those scary cliffs. I wanted so badly to make that leap, I wanted to free myself of that paralyzing fear and I knew the only way I was ever going to move is if I just closed my eyes and threw myself off the edge.
So I did.
I’m still on the long fall down but the view is great and for the first time in a long time, I feel like I can breathe. No more waiting, no more fear.
These past few months have opened me up, made me uncomfortable, forced me to grow, and have shown me that my ability to lean into vulnerability is a strength. The more I say yes, the more I put myself out there, the more I stretch and change. I have to admit, sometimes it’s a little painful, this personal growth thing. But if you stick it out you’ll start to see all the fruits of your labor revealed and your cup will run over and spill all over the floor.
You’ll find yourself smiling a little more.
You’ll make friends who are honest, beautiful people and they will walk the journey with you.
You’ll become a better mother, wife, boss, friend, and human.
You’ll find purpose and abundance in all forms.
You’ll find freedom.
So I leave you with this my friends. Leap.
Take a chance.
Even if your voice shakes and your knees are weak and you kinda wanna puke. Lean into the uncomfortable and open yourself up to all the possibilities life can offer you. I promise, you won’t be disappointed.